Decisions

I have decided to keep it real with myself and work on ME for 2010. I just feel like how can I be in a relationship with someone if I can't bring anything to the table or I am the only one bringing something to the table.
There is so much that I want to do, but I have no idea on how I am going to get these things accomplished. One of my good friends brought some things to light for me today and now I am taking the time to let it all sink in.
When is comes to a mate I desire someone who is goal oriented like I am and motivated to do and get better. My mate should not want to deter me away from any dream and he should want and be able to rock with me. A relationship worth having is worth holding on to. I feel like these days I am just over looking, finding, or letting someone come to me because the ish becomes frustrating especially when I am the only one trying. It hurts, sucks, and a bit overwhelming. I just feel like whomever I am meant to be with will come to me, as intended.

Savvy

" The best way to see a person, is to not even look at them" -Jay-Z

***Brief***
The other day I was on global14.com looking at a video Fabolous and Jay-Z did together and that's were the quote comes from.

***Line and Hook***
It makes me wish I never saw or had to look at some people. At times I wonder what people M.O. 's are and what is their actual purpose in my life. I think that I get too attached to some ppl esp the "seasonal" ones. The second I think to care for them is the moment I see their true colors and sometimes that is not the best look at all these days.
***THE BOOK***
I have started to read Steve Harvey's book and I realized that a lot of what he is saying is so true. And some of that stuff I already knew, and was just in denial and questioning if it was true or not. I realized in a "certain" situation I was the fish sport and not the keeper. When I realized this I was ok with it, but it took a darn year and a half for me to realize this. However, I am still silly because they are a keeper in my book. I like how dudes know from day one what a girl/women will be to them whereas women always try to wing it out and give it a chance and i def have given a chence for too long. I am def starting to think like a man and always acting like a lady...lol

***IT'S BEEN REAL***

***DAYS*** I'm Done

Adoring him is like losing him. I know that the two may seem to contradict themselves, but its how I feel. It's like the more I adore thee the more it seems to be slipping away. I'm at a point in my life were I am ready to be done with the past and enjoy my present and maybe prepare for my future. It's a lot of things that I am unsure about, but I guess I really can't sit around wondering about the things I can't change and have no control over. I honestly feel like I need to be on a vacation somewhere like Miami and just taking a break from it all. I'm done discussing the same subject and I'm done trying to define things. If it's meant for me to know then it will be unveil to me. Other than that I'm just gone float on clouds.

***THE END***